What the heck am I doing...

I am moving forward. I keep coming up with reasons I am not writing in this blog. I started my new blog Jan. 1, and it is intended to be a daily blog. So far at most I skip one day and have only done that once. It will also always include pictures though not always selfies. I want it a daily tracker of me I guess. I am always so tired when I get home and winter is absolutely not helping with that but I definitely need to be more attentive. I have no intention of stopping this blog or the personal work on myself because I am far from finished, especially regarding my mental health. I am so much further than I expected to be but I believe my Job has pushed me to this point because I am in fact DOING my job while learning more. I am DOING IT. And that helped open my eyes. I am far more capable than I ever imagined and some day I will tell R he was right regarding my potential. I never viewed myself with enough worth to even see just how much potential I truly had and now well I have the perfect image that I keep feeling needs shared so may as well place it here.

I am finally realizing myself and I am not going to question myself anymore. I have no reason to. Look what I have done in the last two months. I am super proud of myself at work and I know I have made mistakes but I think I have been doing so well and my employees are genuinely happy to see me and talk to me. I just, I am proud of myself. I am truly fixing myself, healing myself, growing as a whole. I never want to stop that, I never want to be so content with myself that I plateau because I want to always continue growing. Continue to always better myself as an individual and as a human. This journey is no longer just about me fixing myself, this is about me giving back, being a better human and soul. Me knowing that we should never stop. I will figure out a way to dedicate time to this journey, because I definitely think I am making excuses and that is old T.. new T is done with excuses. She is here to act not just speak. ~ T ~